Soother

Just like her jie jie, Rachel also loooves and neeeds to suckle to go to sleep and yet they both do not take to pacifier - they'd both push the teat out with their tongues.

Having said that, Renee's whines are less aggressive as compared to her meimei's and due to bf(and perhaps age as well, hahaha), I'm feeling tired easily these days and have succumbed to giving Rachel the pacifier.  However, the many times I've offered the pacifier to Rachel, she'd always reject it but last night, after she's cried the 2nd time I've put her down to her cot(after bf her, more like letting her suckle), I decided to give the pacifier another try.  The 1st time I put it into her mouth whilst she's in dreamy mode, she rejected it, even with many attempts.  But on the 2nd time she fussed on bed, I sensed that she's more tired already and so, after she's drifted off to dreamland, I waited awhile more before I delatched her and immediately 'fed' her the pacifier as soon as she stirred!  At first, she still tried to push the teat out but perhaps being tired herself, and maybe 'cos I was still holding her close to my chest, she finally suckled it, hehehe.  And then, it was good night for her..., although the pacifier has dropped from her mouth(leaving a big mark on her mouth area!).

Today, I took the pacifier along with me when we went out and as anticipated, she fussed each time she wanted to fall asleep and can't(due to noise or foreign environment) but again, she rejected the pacifier time after time til the last attempt when she was feeling too tired to continue rejecting hahaha.  However, when she was suckling the pacifier, she suddenly saw me and looked puzzled, as if wondering "ey, how come mommy's so far away?...", it's very funny to see that look on her face, hahaha.

Just now, again, whilst I was in the shower, Papa tried to feed her with the EBM I've warmed-up on standby but she wouldn't finish it.  She finally drank up the balance after I tried to coax her with a lullaby but 10mins after I've put her to her cot, she made noise again, haiz... So, no choice, pacifier to the rescue!  And again, she rejected it but again, I tried... She took it with lesser attempts this time round but then, as usual, she'd put her hand(thumb near) and she felt as if she's sucking her thumb... Not sure how tonight's going to be like, haiz.

To be honest, I've never quite like the idea of giving pacifier to my kid(s) but with Rachel's strong desire to suckle, I seem to have no choice.  I hope she won't take too much to it, as I really don't like to see the shape of pacifier inprinted on her mouth area(not forgetting abt the saliva rash) and I'm also rather afraid that the helper would give a soiled pacifier(if dropped) to her at night or when I'm not looking.  So, I really really hope and *crossing my fingers* that she won't get too used to a pacifier but if she does, I must remember to remove the soother when she's fallen asleep...  And in the meantime, I guess I'd have to try harder on other ways to soothe her...