The Prep Talk (abt her Fears)

Last night, before Renee's aunts, Elsie and Li left our home, aunty Li requested for Renee to play the violin.  As usual, she rejected but fearing that they'd be leaving right away, she finally relented.  She chose to play the Minuet II as she's just picked-up on how to sway a little to the tune like how the students of Nafa had done during the concert and she wanted to try it out(although she's only tried it once and had fumbled a little whilst she played but to me, it's 'well done' on the willing to try part).  Then, as Li likes the variation tune of the Long Long Ago(suzuki bk II) she's played some time ago, she requested for the piece but instead, Renee wanted to do 'The Two Grenadiers' which she's just learnt...  And because she didn't play the requested tune, aunty Li teased about going back if she doesn't play the piece and that really got to Renee.  Reminded by Elsie, we've indeed indicated to her that the next one would be the last but we've asked her to do yet another piece - so, in a way, it's our 'fault'(esp. knowing that she's so unwilling to play infront of people).  Obviously, she wasn't happy and started to fuss.  Papa was angry with this and began to chide her.

When her aunts had left and papa getting ready to bed, I decided to talk to her about this.  I've been telling her about the importance of being able to perform infront of others, especially when she wants to join the elite team of Nafa.  She had expressed understanding in this area when we decided to let her go for the audition but it seems like the actual fact of having to do it still hasn't quite really registered yet.  Perhaps, it's like what she said "I havn't started with Nafa yet" but knowing her, I think I need to prep her about it seriously.

Our 'talk' lasted more than an hour, til 12:10am!(with the last 20mins with her explaining her point of view in understanding the need, hahaha) and although it had appeared that she might be ready afterall but knowing her... I'm keeping an open mind about it.  I've 'warned' her that during our forth-coming family gatherings, there might be a good chance that her aunts/our friends might request that she play the violin again and she's not to throw away those opportunities(I classified them to her as chances to help eliminate her fear), just do whatever she could.  She agreed and said she'd try.  We'll see....

*guess what, she's enjoyed our 'talk' so much that she asked me to continue with it tomorrow, hahahahaha.